About. That. How.

We are nearing the anniversary of our 15 year journey with our son through the maze of Autism. This is what I’ve learned so far:

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From his Autism I’ve learned about the fragility of life.

From his Autism I’ve learned about the power of hope.
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From his Autism I’ve learned about the folly of making life plans.

From his Autism I’ve learned about how to build spiritual and emotional levy’s.

From his Autism I’ve learned about how much of a coward I am in comparison to that of a little child.

From his Autism I’ve learned about horse therapy, speech therapy, occupational therapy, cognitive therapy, supplemental therapy, food therapy, and dozens of other therapies.

From his Autism I’ve learned about how to not be closed minded when it comes to looking for ways to help other people.

From his Autism I’ve learned about the delicate balance most of our senses have with each other.

From his Autism I’ve learned about acupressure, EFT, and energy healing.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to be grateful for small kindnesses.

From his Autism I’ve learned that my once often bragged about faith life had the strength of toothpick.

From his Autism I’ve learned that God wasn’t the one hiding from me – it was the other way around.

From his Autism I’ve learned that a life is only measured by how much you love, not by how much have, what you do, how many arguments you win, or social status.

From his Autism I’ve learned that my previous view of life was absolute crap.

From his Autism I’ve learned that there can be joy that can be harvested from struggle and suffering if you just look for it.

From his Autism I’ve learned that outward appearances should never define the magic inside a person.

From his Autism I’ve learned that most people are kind and understanding if you tell them your story.

From his Autism I’ve learned that there will always be a small group of people who will be assholes who judge those who are different than them.

From his Autism I’ve learned that life is not always going to be fair.

From his Autism I’ve learned that there is always a way to get past giant walls.
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From his Autism I’ve learned that laughter is really often the best medicine.

From his Autism I’ve learned that Garth Brooks was maybe right about the value of answered prayers.

From his Autism I’ve learned that speech is overrated.

From his Autism I’ve learned that tender hugs are very underrated.

From his Autism I’ve learned that when I fall down I’m also being shown the roadmap of how to get back up.

From his Autism I’ve learned that some days are simply only about surviving so you can see the next one.

From his Autism I’ve learned that whatever is causing me pain today has an expiration date.

From his Autism I’ve learned that there is power in being patient.

From his Autism I’ve learned that there is no quota to the amount of tears a human can cry

From his Autism I’ve learned how lucky I am to have the support system I have in my life.

From his Autism I’ve learned how there is a difference in accepting a situation and giving up to it.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to forgive other people when they let me down.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to forgive myself when I let other people down.

From his Autism I’ve learned how that closing my eyes and breathing deeply is one of the best defenses against the terrors of the world.

From his Autism I’ve learned how far the medical community has come in understanding children in the spectrum.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to surrender to the moment.

From his Autism I’ve learned that being kindness just about always trumps being right.

From his Autism I’ve learned how regrets of the past and the worries future are nothing but ghosts that will get bored and leave if you ignore them.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to only worry about the things I can control.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to be okay with the fact that I really don’t control jack in my life.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to overcome my depression.

From his Autism I’ve learned how God really does work in mysterious way.

From his Autism I’ve learned how I’m not a very good detective when it comes to solving what those mysterious ways are.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to build a safe house in the ruins of a broken heart.

From his Autism I’ve learn how to be okay when things are far from okay.

From his Autism I’ve learned how to fight.

I swear I’m trying to follow his lead.
I swear I am – but I’m not perfect.
I’m grateful that from his Autism I’ve learned that perfection is boring.
Perfection is a bullshit word that is meant only for baseball or computers.
Everybody has jagged and broken pieces in them.
It’s those rough edges that make us beautiful.
That is what I have learned from his autism.

I've seen miracles occur in these mountains.
I’ve seen miracles occur in these mountains.

From his Autism I’ve learned about the magic of love.
From his Autism I’ve learned that love is the only thing I’ll carry from this world when I die.
From his Autism I’ve learned how to love unconditionally.

3 Responses

  1. Nancy from colo
    Nancy from colo at | | Reply

    I’ve read your blog from back in the MySpace days. My sister is autistic and your posts are always do comforting my me and my mom.

    Thank you jbj

  2. gabriele
    gabriele at | | Reply

    Thank you From Rome, Italy. Me, my wife Lucia and our marvellous 4 year autistic child Davide really appreciate your words. Against, thank u.

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